I’ve been working full-time for myself for about a year now. It’s been one of the most spiritual experiences that I’ve ever encountered. So many new people have come into my life, for good or bad. I’ve had so any rewarding moments that have left me feeling on top of the world. Unfortunately, 70% of the time I’ve felt the opposite. There are so many uncertainties and disappointments that I endure.
Whereas most people would give up and find a job, working for somebody else, I’ve stuck it out and the business and my lifestyle is gradually getting better— though business has remained challenging. I don’t sell retail products and I don’t provide a traditional service; I’m an investor. I have to spend money in order to make money. My goal is to make my money back as soon as I can in order to spend more money and keep the process growing, so I can survive (and hopefully thrive).
As I write this, I’m currently playing a waiting game for a few deals to close out. I cannot invest in new properties because my capital is tied up. Imagine not making money, meanwhile your bills and living expenses are ever so present. It’s frustrating.
I have this one home, that just will not sell. I don’t get it, because it’s a great home! I bought it thinking that it would sell very quickly. I spent money fixing it up and instead of selling fast, I believe that it is cursed. When I say there are a lot of disappointments, here is what I mean. I’ve sold the house 3 times already and each time the person buying the property was not approved by the community that the home was located in.
I even had contract filled out for another couple who pulled a last minute con-artist story, claiming that they were moving to Boston. Instead of telling me that they weren’t interested, they literally had a scripted argument filled with drama (between one another) to back out of the deal. I know they were lying, cause the women responded to an ad that I had for another home.
I’m not complaining, because this is the path that I have chosen, by being an investor in a market segment that I chose. I’ll admit there are times in which I just want to scream and cry of anger. And sometimes I do throw fits and ask God, why? You see, I’m doing everything that I can possibly do, within logical reason, to make this home sell. I even pray every night and have marketed this property aggressively.
My patience is being tested and so is my faith.
I’m doing my best to keep a positive mental attitude about it, but each month this home isn’t sold, I’m losing a lot of money. It just seems that nothing has worked in my favor thus far. I do have the home on contract for the 4th time right now and I’m awaiting the results for their community approval. I’m hoping that this will be it and that I’ll be done with this experience. It’s been painful.
All I want in life is to be happy. In order to take my mind off this property (at times) I’ve found many distractions to help alleviate the frustration.
So why is this happening? Why am I getting drowned in a crappy situation? Why won’t this home just go the fuck away? Some christian friends have suggested that God is about giving us strength, not about playing tricks on us (that is the Devils work, which may suggest the reason for being tested).
Good/bad entities aside, I guess these tests are purposely fitted to us, so that we can stay honest with ourselves and be more humble, while creating the opportunity for us to make the right decisions. It takes work to overcome challenges. And for me, this situation has made me feel little at times. Is it the universes goal to help me find the strength to keep going on? Is this my make it or break it moment? I feel like it is.
I do know that if I can sell this house on the terms for which I seek, my life will be in such a better position moving forward. The experience, although very uncomfortable, has been rewarding in the sense that I’ve learned a lot about my market, particular aspects that make a home sell and I’ve learned of people that I can trust or distrust. This home has crossed so many new energies on my path. I’ve been trained to contain my excitement about the potentially good opportunities that I come across. One thing that I’ve learned is that people can be so flakey and dishonest. It’s mind boggling to me because I’m a very sincere person that is pretty upfront. There have been so many people that have played me. It’s crazy!
As challenging as this has been to cope with, it’s certainly brought me back to reality a bit. In some sense I’ve become more cautious, although I just want to be secure and free. The only thing that I can do is just keep pressing on. Besides my faith and patience being tested, my resiliency is being tested. What I do know is that I’ll be way more advanced once this challenge is overcome.
God constantly tests us. Without the pain and suffering, there would be no growth. This training is constant throughout our lives. It’s up to us to stay persistent and keep an eye out for the signs that the universe presents us. Whether it’s your personal life, health or business, you just have to keep on moving forward, while never giving up. Have faith that the spoken word will assist you during crisis or even the good times.
I cannot wait to achieve my goals. I feel like I so much to offer the world when that times comes. Right now I have to focus on me and it hurts that I feel the need to wait, but I know that once I surpass this test (not the house, but the whole process of attaining freedom and financial stability) will be more beneficial to those who cross my path.
Thank you god. I am grateful for your tests as I know I will over come them and become a stronger person!
Not even two hours went by after creating this article that I heard some news about a deal that I’m working on. My buyer for a home needed to sell their home in order to buy a new place. Well, today was her closing day. Guess what happened? A flash flood, flooded their basement and halted the sale of their home, which in turn, halted the deal that I’m working on.
It’s freakish that things like this happen at the last minute. I wonder if this article had anything to do with it. Did I challenge god? Not sure what to think of it, but I will prevail.