Saturn Return : My Near Quarter Life “Crisis”

I’m definitely not the savviest as it relates to astrology, however I’ve come to learn that ages 27-30 are what is known as Saturn Return.  It’s during these years that Saturn is aligned with where it was positioned during our birth.  Just about every 29 years, the planet orbits the sun, so each interval signifies a new change, called “returns.”  The return that takes place during ones first transition may start a little earlier or later in life, however what defines this time period is major transformation from childhood to adulthood.

My life has completely changed over the last few years.  I’ve moved across the country, I’ve lost my father, I’ve traveled a lot, my hearts been broken, I’ve made many new friends, I’ve worked several different jobs and I’ve had many new experiences and adventures.  There have been no doubt a number of good times and bad.  In many ways the bad times have been even more constructive for what will define me for the future.

I’m now 29 years old and feel that I’ve dealt with nearly everything that could have possibly gone wrong in my life.  Well, I hope that’s the case at least (knock on wood).  There are moments when everything regarding the future is a big blur.  There was a time where the future had me anxious and worried.  No doubt, “all we have and we’ll ever have is now.”

In many ways, I felt like I had a much clearer picture of how my adulthood would be right after college.  How naive.  I thought I’d have several goals accomplished by now.  Truth is, I’m not even close to being on the same path as I was on.  if I knew how I’d be now, then, I’d be scared shitless of the path that I’m on.  I know a lot more now, but ignorance is truly bliss, although I don’t ever want to be ignorant.

Luckily, I’m not the only one who feels like they’re only going through the motions.  In fact, everyone that I’m friends with, around my age, is going through “crisis” whether they would like to believe it or not.  Some are way to scared to acknowledge or embrace change, so they crawl back into the familiar space that they’ve always associated themselves with, while others just keep knocking on new doors.  I’m the latter.

Whether they’re successful friends living in Manhattan or nomads just trying to get by, we’re almost all in the same boat.  These years are truly real and yes, confusing as “all hell.”  It helps to know that I’m not the only one.

Top 3 Saturn Return Questions

1- What career is the best for me? > Does it fall within my beliefs? (job competition hasn’t helped generation Y)

2- Where do I want to live?

3-Is it time to settle down?

Society has us believe that we’re adults right out of high school at 18. What a crock of shit that is.  Although I wouldn’t trade away my college education or experiences, there is no way that I was ready to make a decision on my future then.  I can think of 10 majors that would interest me more now, that are more practical to my beliefs and usefulness to the everyday world.   I’ve come to realize that there is no reason on why we rush into adulthood.

The one thing that I’ve come to realize is that this time period of confusion has enabled me to focus on being more present.  I also tend to get a little hard on myself, so I’ve lightened up a bit.  I’m not getting younger, but I still have a lot of life to live before I cave in on “settling down.”  As a result, I’ve focused on living, although I cannot survive just by living, so when it’s time to bunker down, I will be ready.  In the meantime, life is short, so follow whatever that TRULY moves you, if and when given the opportunity. I’m a firm believer that this “crisis” will catch up to one in life, much stronger, if not faced or explored now.  If you’re experiencing a similar transition, then don’t worry, because you’re not alone!